by Emma Stough | Feb 18, 2021 | flash fiction
From the time I learn how to bleed I keep a scab in the fleshy inner curve of my ear. Small, coarse, red-brown. I tend to it like I should tend to myself. When I am lonely, or need something to ruin, I dig a fingernail into the cartilage, tear the scab. Little blood, bearable pain. I like being in charge of how I feel. If this is being selfish then I am definitely selfish.
At my job, I pick the scab and squint at it on the tip of my thumb while selling lime green diet pills to women who can talk for hours about their skewed body image. I am required to tell you I get paid for this, I tell them. $7.50/hour. They tell me this is terrible compensation for all I put up with.
I keep the scab a secret because I once told a boyfriend and he asked to see it. When I showed him, he licked my ear, and the scab fell into his mouth, and he swallowed it whole. He blinked at me in surprise. I felt an unbearable pain.
There is no medical cure for having a body, the women who don’t need diet pills tell me. This is how I will look—and feel—for the rest of my life.
As a kid, I kept the scabs in an empty gum tin under a loose floorboard. Sang them lullabies.
One of the women buys three whole bottles of lime-green pills every month. I think she is in love with me. Tell me something you wouldn’t tell any other customer, she says. I check to see if my boss is watching. I tell her about the scab. She asks what caused the injury. I ask, What injury?
We meet for coffee in autumn, then winter, then spring. In summer, she asks me to take a trip with her. The diet pill company has gone under and my scab has doubled in size. It requires a little more force to extract; one long sting.
The flight is delayed. I check on the scab in the airport bathroom. I dig around in my ear. It’s nowhere to be found. Fingernails etched in blood. I tell the woman that I have to go home, that something terrible has happened. Take me with you, she says. Your ear is bleeding. A feeling along my legs, prickling, like I’m shaving with cold water. Good luck with your body, I say. In the cab, I make a phone call. And what’s the reason for your visit? After a moment of thought, I say: Disappearing parts.
The doctor asks me what’s wrong. His last name looks like “apricot” but is not pronounced the same. I tell him that the scab in my ear has disappeared. He says, You’ve healed? I try to explain that it’s not the healing I’m worried about; it’s the absence of pain. He shakes his head, like he’s disappointed, and scribbles a prescription out onto a pad. I take the paper and grip it hard through the hallway, through the waiting room, through the parking lot. In the car, I unfold it and find he’s written something absolutely illegible. Absolute gibberish.
Sometimes, when I try to remember what it felt like to be in charge of the removal and the regrowth, I imagine the paper said something like: It’s okay that you’ve handled things wrong. It’s okay to get worse, and worse, and worse.
by K.B. Carle | Feb 12, 2021 | news
This past weekend, I did a deep dive into flash ghost stories. I leaped into the realm of flash specters and those that haunt with an open mind, not in search of something clearly defined as I did when researching flash Fairy tales and Fables. I wanted to find stories reminiscent of Casper, the Friendly Ghost (even though I’m a fan of the conflict caused by the presence of Uncle Fester and Spooky), Ghost Busters, with a pinch of Inky, Blinky, Pinky, and Clyde (the ghosts from Pac-man for the non-nerds out there). As you polish your ghostly tales for Fractured Lit’s Ghost, Fable, and Fractured Fairy tales contest, consider telling a different kind of ghost story. I’m drawn to the stories below because each contains a different perspective regarding the haunted house, a banshee, friendly ghost, or spirit.
Mao’s flash is what I would call a deconstructed ghost story. This isn’t Scooby-Doo screaming, AH A G-G-G-GHOST! Instead, the title and the following three paragraphs depict the haunting elements within this flash, the entrance of an ex-ghost. What I love about Mao’s story is the focus on reality, the grounding elements of the two characters living and growing together. Therefore, the ex-ghost is not a soul floating in and out of the narrator’s life but rather a companion, an actual being that learns how to interact with her sister, who knows how to be alive. The will to learn compared to the intimate relationship shared between sisters left my emotions shattered in the best way at the story’s conclusion.
What happens when a ghost has unfinished business? Better yet, what happens when the living have unfinished business with the ghost that haunts their home? Edwards provides a chilling story of a narrator who is happy to see his father’s ghost again, despite his wife and child’s unenthusiastic reception of this unknown figure. Much like in Mao’s flash, the familial ties are still present within this piece, but what I love in this flash that sets it apart is the narrator’s attempts to excuse his ghost-father’s behavior. “He was always absentminded, you know.” I don’t want to spoil the ending but, as you work on your ghost stories, consider if your ghost or those who are still living are ready to say goodbye to one another and how, if one or both are not, how that impacts their interactions with one another.
If you haven’t read anything by Noa Covo, best to prepare yourself because she is taking on the flash world by storm. I am already a fan of her work and this story continues to be one of my favorites. Covo’s flash is a lesson on not only what the title states but how to make your ghost unique. There are instructions but also rules to follow, ways to appease the ghost Covo has created. Even methods on how to alter your life to make the ghost more comfortable. The grounding element, what ties the story’s “you” and the ghost together, is the music but the personality and life Covo breathes into the ghost’s character reveals more about who this spirit once was and who “you” are in this world the author has constructed.
So far, I’ve provided stories revealing the ghost as a secondary character. But, what about the ghost as the main character? There’s a careful tightrope to balance on when writing from the point of view of a ghost and Phillips flies across it with ease. We are given hints that not all is well with Mary as she plays MASH in the first sentence. Consider Phillips’ decision to subtract the term “ghost” from her story. Why? This story is about something much bigger, a life lost yes, but trapped wondering what could have been if they had lived another year, week, or day. The age of this ghost also plays a vital role in what the cost of a life lost too soon really is and heightens the sense of time standing still for a spirit who cannot remove themselves from the place they ceased to be.
My list would not be complete without a story by Cathy Ulrich, who continues to transport readers to different worlds and across universes through her multiple flash series’. For this list, I’ve chosen a flash from her Girl Detective series. We’ve discussed ghosts as secondary characters, main characters, relatives, and friends. What about the inclusion of multiple ghosts? Ghosts who haunt, who reach, who others can see? I love the girl detective’s interactions with these ghosts, but Ulrich provides another ghost within this story in the form of the absent father. The father’s removal from this flash is depicted by his empty seat at the table, through the mother’s actions, and the girl detective noticing his absence. When writing your ghost stories, consider all the forms your ghosts may take. In reading Ulrich’s story, consider which presence is more haunting. Is it really the ghosts who make themselves known, or the one whose absence is felt by all of Ulrich’s characters?
Further Reading:
- You Told Me to Write You a Way Out by Chloe N. Clark
- You Don’t Have a Place Here by Anna Vangala Jones
- The Haunting of Mile Marker 73 by Anne Gresham
- The Ghost That Haunts My House by Madeline Anthes
- Life Cycle by Joshua Jones
- Catherine Eddowes Describes Life After Death by Amy Sayre Baptista
- Soba by K.B. Carle
by Alvin Park | Feb 11, 2021 | flash fiction
I don’t know where Mom learned to drive. I don’t know where she learned to hold the wheel firm or belt my chest with her right arm whenever we stopped suddenly for the stray deer lying in the road, still half-breathing, or the broken homes that spilled their bricks onto the whitened dirt.
Last night, the man on the radio spoke of some rock, some piece of mountain falling from the sky. He said, Please stay clear. It will bend trees, take apart homes, melt glue and nails, turn crops to craters.
He mentioned the name of a village at the center of impact. Mom said, That village used to be home. When you were still in my belly. Do you remember?
The neighbors gave her the keys to their broken car, and she gave them the cookie tin full of coins and jewelry. They asked, Where will you go? Where will you take your little boy?
We arrived at the village, her once-home. It resembled our other village, the one we’d come from, my once-home. Houses collapsed onto their broken foundations, their walls dotted with white soot. I recognized where the gunpowder had bitten into the wood, poisoned the river with lead. I recognized where the soil had become pitted by the worms, the flies, and the boots of hungry men passing through with uniforms tied around their waists, sweat licking onto their upper lips.
With the homes vacated, the last villagers trailed down the road, shaking under the strain of books, photographs, and clay pots strapped to their shoulders. Mom watched them from the car, thought of her parents’ words from so long ago. Where will you go? Who will take you in?
She took a bag full of tools from the back of the car, held my hand as we found our way to one of the few homes with its head still lifted. I looked up at the sky thinking I’d see the shadow of that falling piece of mountain.
The door was unlocked, and the home was empty save for papers, the smell of moldy jujubes, a wooden crib tipped to its side.
She laid out the tools, and I drilled holes in the floorboards the way Mom told me: deep enough that I could feel dirt sticking to the auger, the wood coming loose like paper skin.
With the boards gone, she gave me the trowel while she held her shovel, the handle already smoothed by the months she spent clearing our fields, hoping to de-seed the fungus.
We’re digging a place of rest for that stone in the sky, she said, Dig until the ground is as tall as me and then a little more.
She raised her arm above her head, and I jumped to slap her hand. She caught me, kissed where my shoulder folded to my neck. She laughed and I laughed, and I didn’t think there could be anything brighter than the way that she smiled, held each breath between her teeth, looked at me like she knew every good thing that I could ever become.
She spoke of the stone as a seed, and I imagined grapes, plums, melons, new roots with soft voices full of juice and pulp.
Hours passed, and we stood in a waist-deep hole. The man on the radio said, You can see it now in the sky, between the stars. Impact in eight hours.
But out our window: clouds, a diffused light, a faint moon cupping the sound of cicadas.
This will have to do, Mom said, and we lay in the dirt. She held me close, the smell of lemon and perilla in her sweat. She whispered the bedtime story about the man with our surname.
They called him a war hero, she said, He sank with the ship, guided people to rafts even as he swallowed saltwater.
But he made a promise, she said.
But there is only so much to take, she said.
I fell into a dream where I heard her say, I’m sorry, maybe it’s not too late.
Morning: Mom sat in the doorway. The men on the radio spoke over themselves about trajectories. They explained that even math could fail to predict the turning winds, the way that air can prevail.
The stone skipped into the ocean, they said, No casualties.
I wiped the strange tears at her cheeks, careful not to get dirt in her eyes. She pulled me into her lap, and I asked her about the seed, the stone, the mountain. She wiped the hair out of my face and pressed her lips into my face over and over until I could taste salt through my laughs. She smiled, like a dimming sun.
I wanted to ask her why she was crying. I wanted to ask her what she wasn’t saying to me, but she turned my head and pointed over the hills standing guard outside the village.
I could have sworn, she said, I could have sworn I saw the sea there.
by Michelle Ross | Feb 8, 2021 | flash fiction
A seed is an escape pod. A plant egg detaches from its mother from the start, Jody says as she presses two speckled brown beans into each of our palms.
Jody used to just be our babysitter, but now she’s Dad’s girlfriend. “But don’t go asking your dad about it yet,” she says. “You know how he is.” She makes her voice low and stiff. Says, “Eat every pea on your plate, Laney. I’m serious. Eat those peas!”
How this came to be and what that makes Jody to us is confusing, but we like Jody. The lobes of her ears are decorated with rainbows and stars. She lets my little brother, Sam, and I style her hair and paint her eyelids with one of the eyeshadows Mom left behind. We brush the pink powder across her lids over and over so we can watch those spidery hairs flutter.
Also, she answers our questions. When we asked Dad why Mom left, he said, “Heck if I can explain that woman.” When we ask Jody, she says, “Because she’s got a disease. It’s called selfishness.” She says her own mother was the same way. Then she puts her finger to her lips and says we shouldn’t talk about this around Dad, either.
*
The lucky seeds drift away with the wind, Jody says, as we bury the beans in tiny pots filled with dirt. Or they sail streams or rivers or oceans before putting down roots. Or they hitch rides on cats’ backs, bears’ paws, or birds’ beaks. Or they get swallowed. They travel through the foul, bacteria-ridden bodies of animals.
“But fuck if they care,” Jody says.
My brother’s eyes sparkle. Cuss words spoken without hesitation or shame is another reason we like Jody.
Jody says the seeds that escape don’t mind traveling through the godawful intestines of animals because, at the journey’s end, they’re released far, far away from their mothers.
“What about the unlucky seeds?” Sam asks.
“What do you think?” she says.
“They fall down?” he says.
“That’s my boy,” Jody says.
Sam smiles, but those words, “my boy,” stick messily in my head, like the globs of glue, grayed from the grime of the day, that I’m still prying from my fingers hours after we made macaroni sculptures. We used the fancy red and green pasta Mom bought from a farmer’s market then never cooked.
“The unlucky seeds’ escape pods don’t work. They’re born in their mothers’ shadows,” Jody says.
We stare at the dirt, wondering if anything is happening yet.
*
When our bean seeds push up through the soil and split their shells in two to wear them as capes, Jody says they look poised to rocket into the air like Superman.
Sam grins, lifts his pot, and pilots it around the kitchen.
“But flight will not come,” Jody says. She looks wistfully out the window.
I look, too. What I see are the hard, green balls dotting the limbs of our orange tree. When Mom left in March, there wasn’t any fruit yet, only white blooms that she clipped and arranged in a juice glass.
When Dad calls, Jody takes the phone into our parents’ bedroom. She whispers to us, “Girlfriend/boyfriend time.”
We listen at the door, ears pressed against the cool wood. We hear Jody say, “Sure thing, Mr. Hayes. They’re in good hands.”
When she opens the door, she’s got a shimmery green neck scarf Mom left behind tied around her neck like a bow. She says, “Your dad’s going to be away an extra day. Important business stuff.”
Jody scoops us into her arms. “That’s OK, though, right? We’ll survive without him, won’t we?”
We spend the afternoon in bed with a pile of books. We admire how Jody contorts her voice in so many different directions.
*
So much can go wrong for any seedling in these early days, Jody tells us, as we water our little bean plants. When a seedling is small and weak, one injury to its flesh can ends its life. One day without water, and the seedling may crumble. Not enough sunlight, and the seedling may yellow and limp.
But for those born in their mothers’ shadows, Jody says, the biggest threat is Mother herself. If resources are scarce, she will not ration. She will not sacrifice for her offspring.
Jody removes a pan of cupcakes from the oven. Vanilla cake with chocolate frosting, both made from scratch. “The right way,” Jody said, after I pointed out that we had boxed cake mix and a tub of frosting in the pantry.
She tells us she taught herself how to bake, just like she taught herself everything else she knows. “It’s hard having no one to help you and teach you,” she says. “It’s so fucking hard.”
Jody takes off the red oven mitts, stacks them on the counter smudged with frosting. The mitts were my present to Mom last Christmas. Mom said they were too beautiful to risk dirtying. She hung them on a hook on the wall.
“But better to struggle alone than the alternative,” Jody says.
She explains that if little seedlings growing in their mothers’ shadows die, then as they rot and decompose, their mother will gobble them up, too.
She divides the cupcakes between us so that we each get to frost six. Then she says, “What do you think? Two for me and five for each of you?”
Sam’s eyes widen. He slides five of the six cupcakes he frosted closer to his chest.
I locate the dingy blue oven mitts still in the drawer next to the oven, yet another thing Mom left behind.
As Jody and Sam lift frosted cupcakes to their mouths and bite, I drop those old mitts into the kitchen wastebasket with the brittle shards of cracked eggshells.
by K.B. Carle | Feb 4, 2021 | news
The Tortoise and the Hare. The Ants nod the Grasshopper. Both are examples of famous fables with the inclusion of animals and a moral. Can a fable be so clearly defined? Is the formula simply animals + a number
1,000 words x morals = flash fable? I believe what sets a fable apart from any other story (in this case a fairy tale or Ghost story) is the moral. However, not all fables have to include animals although, as an animal lover, I’m not against their inclusion.
The following stories are what I consider to be fables and, as you continue preparing your flash fables for Fractured Lit’s Ghost, Fable, and Fractured Fairy tales contest, dare to experiment or re-imagine the definition of a fable. For example, a ghost fable in which the Tortoise and the Hare have a rematch years after their initial race in the spirit world. What if the Pea from The Princess and the Pea is the one who desires to marry the princess or the prince, triggering a whole new story. I wonder what the moral of that Fairy tale fable would be?
- Tiger Free Days by DeMisty D. Bellinger
On the surface, this micro describes the reactions of those observing an escaped tiger pacing outside of their office building. What strikes me about Bellinger’s story is the dialogue, what’s said and unsaid, especially in regards to one character’s impatience to be rid of—what she perceives and what society tells her to believe is—a dangerous animal. The narrator’s reaction, their dialogue suggesting a note of irritation, followed by the narrator walking away from the window is what fascinates me about this piece. I’ve returned to this moment time and time again with new revelations about what this moment could mean for the narrator and how it impacts the story. I re-read this micro several times after the murder of George Floyd and again after the murder of Elijah McClain. Both men, like Bellinger’s tiger, were perceived as dangerous because of their appearance. Both men were faced with the impatience of outsiders eager and ready to be rid of them. I find many morals within Bellinger’s story regarding the impact of silence and assumption as well as the resounding impact of the decision to be an observer behind the glass.
Remember: a fable doesn’t have to fit the formula of animals + a number
1,000 words x morals = flash fable. Hoang dives directly into the elements of a classic fairy tale, giving us royalty, a kingdom, and a handsome prince. I was immediately struck by this flash because, instead of the wicked stepmother, we are introduced to two very shallow parents with a “not exactly pretty” princess. Hoang’s narrator tells a quirky fairy tale that leads to a very important lesson for the King and Queen. Sure, we receive an assumed happily ever after however, the author takes this fairy tale fable in a darker direction, leading readers to wonder if the King and Queen learned their lesson along with the audience?
Not all fables have to include animals however, I do love any writer that can incorporate any animals’ natural instincts to heighten the whimsy in an otherwise serious story. Although Prescott’s main characters are Dung Beetles, we are introduced to some very familiar themes including jealousy, love, and all the complicated conflicts that arise when these two warring emotions come together. I won’t spoil the plot of this flash however, Prescott’s piece is a prime example of a classic fable where animals—instincts and all—are utilized to breathe new life into an otherwise natural occurrence in human life, making this flash unique to Prescott and her Dung Beetle stars.
I was introduced to the work of Ji Yun by the wonderful writer, K.C. Mead-Brewer, and I can’t get enough! This fable includes an element that I have yet to explore but consider to be another category of a fable: a legend. Yun’s flash is a story within a story, one the narrator heard from their servant and is now sharing with us. Why? This is how stories originated. We passed them down so they could be shared, transformed, and remembered. Yun’s legendary fable focuses on the need to continue the generational line but also the treatment of women as meat. While many fables resist the urge to state the moral of the story at the end, Yun does which made me question why? After reading his biography, I learned that he rebelled against his role of censoring texts that were against the emperor’s ideals. Perhaps revealing the moral in his legendary fable is another act of rebellion, a moral within a moral.
Further Reading:
- Slope of Tigers by Ji Yun. Translated by John Yu Branscum and Yi Izzy Yu
- The Listening Tree by Micah Dean Hicks
- Don’s Volcano by Lincoln Michel
- Tales of the Devil’s Wife: Our Children by Carmen Lau
- This is a Story About a Fox by K.B. Carle
by Veronica Montes | Feb 1, 2021 | flash fiction
Behind the books on her shelves she finds the artifacts of their girlhood, all of them fuzzed with dust: pocket-sized dolls with safety-scissor haircuts, crayon stubs, origami frogs, magnetic letters. She frowns when she finds the Tagalog flashcards, a reminder of all the things she failed to teach them: nanay is mother, kanin is rice. She places the items in a basket, sneezing as she goes, and carries them to the dining room.
Her husband has been chiding her for years now to choose a new table; this one still bears evidence of glitter wars and errant markers. In an uncharacteristic burst of frivolity, he has purchased a vintage bar cart and, if delivery tracking is to be trusted, it will arrive in three weeks. He has forced her hand, yes, but she tries one last thing. She says, “The juxtaposition of this glittered farm table and a 1920s bar cart would be interesting, don’t you think?” He shakes his head no, but he does it kindly.
She places one of the ugly-hair dolls in the center of the table, and straightens its checkered dress while she wonders what to do next. On the nights she can’t sleep she ticks off the last time she spoke to each of her three girls, and the last time they visited. She does it now, recites her litany in a whisper like it’s a secret. Last Monday, two Thursdays ago, thirty-six hours or so. Two weeks, one month, ten days. She stares at the doll. And then, even though she really should get started on dinner, she begins to peel the paper off each crayon, she reads and re-folds the notes from summer camp, she groups blocks by shape and color. Around and around the table she goes, moving slowly, humming, setting one thing here, one thing there, arranging and rearranging until her project reaches what feels like its natural end. It’s not quite symmetrical, not quite a mandala, but it’s beautiful in its own way. She stands on a chair and uses her phone to take a photo from above. And another and another.
She senses that her husband is wondering why there are no smells emanating from the kitchen, no garlic, no onions. She sits down anyway and crops her photos. She runs them through a dozen filters, but decides they look better without. She chooses the one she likes best, changes her mind, chooses another. And then, finally, she sends her favorite to the group chat their daughters have set up. At bedtime, she’ll slide her phone under her pillow, and just past midnight, it will start to vibrate every few minutes. She’ll read their messages in the morning, first thing.
by K.B. Carle | Jan 30, 2021 | news
The New Oxford Dictionary defines a fairy tale as a children’s story that includes magical beings and places. I was pleasantly surprised to find the words, “happily ever after,” omitted from the above definition. In my search for fairy tales, the stories I enjoyed most exchanged their happy endings for humorous blunders or darker themes commonly erased to fit into the “children’s story” category. As you finalize your fairy tales for Fractured Lit’s Ghost, Fable, and Fractured Fairy tales contest, I encourage you to pay close attention to character. What happens to all those minor characters after happily ever after? Consider re-imagining the circumstances of your characters and their surroundings. Dare to create a new kind of fairy tale and ask yourself is the dark forest really as evil as it seems? Does Prince Charming always have to be male or, my favorite, what if? The following stories were written by authors who asked themselves: what if?
- Fairy Godmother Protocols by Sarina Dorie
When I hear the words, “fairy tale,” Sarina Dorie’s flash is the first story that tickles my mind. Dorie utilizes the listicle form—a contract between fairy godmother and godchild—thrusting readers into a corporate oriented fairy tale, but we are receiving information from a character who is bibbidi-bobbidi there then salagadoo-gone. This playful flash also provides readers with a wonderful twist in the forbidden romance and who Prince Charming might have had his eyes on the whole time.
Who says fairy tales have to be The Brothers Grimm or Disney inspired? No one, but be ready to protect your chompers from this scorned fairy. Norman takes one of the most controversial imaginations from childhood and provides an answer to the age old question: What does the tooth fairy do with all those teeth? What I’m drawn to most in Norman’s micro is the voice he’s given to his tooth fairy. A tooth burglary gone wrong, clipped wings, children trying to cut a deal in exchange for teeth? That’s my kind of fairy tale!
Not all fairy tales include fairies. McMahon takes a different route, drawing attention to the familiar setting of the mystical—oftentimes dark—forest. However, there are no singing or shrieking—looking at you Snow White—princesses here. This is a story about transformation. A fairy tale exploring the cost of magic, but the source of tension is not in figuring out why, but how to adapt, to learn, and whether to trust everything that comes with this newfound knowledge.
I’m always searching for stories that add a little quirk to the common tropes we find in fairy tales: damsels trapped in towers, true love’s first kiss, wicked stepmothers or dead mothers. Chan shatters several sunny days in a land far, far away where everyone suddenly knows all the words to the same song in exchange for a darker-toned fairy tale with echoes of a Brother’s Grimm original. There is love but also pain within that love. The transformation in this story is not depicted as beautiful, but within the descriptions of binding sealskin to “our” skin, we learn and are exposed to so much more than happily ever after.
One of the most challenging endeavors to embark upon when writing a fairy tale is to re-imagine one. Something must shift within an already established character to set them apart from the original story. Rosso accomplishes this feat with her portrayal of Rapunzel. Although Rapunzel is still trapped in a tower, she’s not a bubbly artist (Disney) or eager to run off with a prince as a means of escape (Into the Woods) but rather eager to free herself from…I won’t spoil this story’s plot for you. What keeps me coming back to this re-imagined feminist fairy tale are the dysfunctional relationships Rosso builds between the familiar cast of characters paired with Rapunzel’s desire to escape from a twist in the narrative that solidifies this as a Christina Rosso fairy tale.
Further reading:
- All for Tulips by Cheryl Pappas
- Rapunzel, Let Down Your by Faye Brinsmead
- Waking Beauty by Stephanie Hutton
- She is a Beast by Christina Rosso
- When Alice Became the Rabbit by Cyndi MacMillan
- Gretl at Hansel’s Deathbed by Kimberly Glanzmen
- Coven by Anna Cabe
- Fairy Tale in Which You Date the Morally Ambiguous Boy in Math by Charlotte Hughes
by Melissa Ostrom | Jan 28, 2021 | micro
The top drawer of the old bureau painted to look new held thirty-six onesies, freshly laundered and folded into tiny squares and arranged just so, like a box of strawberry fudge. The highchair Meryl’s coworkers at the diner had pitched in to buy stood like an empty throne at the end of the kitchen table. And the snow fell slightly, so scarcely, so finely, that it seemed unintentional, unremarkable. An accident. As if the sky had made a mistake.
On the day Meryl turned unpregnant, her body didn’t keep up with the news, and her breasts stayed veined and tender, and her hair stayed glossy and thick, and her feet stayed aching and swollen. Her stomach remained round. Her brain repeated no.
On the day Meryl wasn’t pregnant anymore, she sat in the rocking chair and didn’t cull a creak from the wood or tap the floor to the rhythm of a rock-a-bye baby falling, failing, and a sunshine taken away, please don’t. She didn’t hum and rehearse. She didn’t rock, rock, rock the depleted ocean inside her.
She sat still and stared out the window, wondering how it could be that cars still sped down the street and people still smiled at their phones and the brick building across from hers still shone pinkly in the February light and Mia and Noah in the apartment below hers still made noisy love because it was Tuesday afternoon and on Tuesdays, they both worked from home, while their kids were at school. Tucked into classrooms. Learning, struggling, playing. Growing.
On this day that came too many weeks too soon, Meryl wondered about Mia and Noah’s kids. All three of them, three whole children, among other parents’ children, hundreds, thousands, millions more.
Small humans everywhere. But here.
by Lucy Zhang | Jan 25, 2021 | flash fiction
Protection
Erik is raising three chicks in his backyard. Erik is always telling us how he’ll have fresh eggs once they’re grown, bright orange yolks from the paprika-mixed grains he’s feeding them, tough shells that require a good thwack to crack. We’re all jealous so we tell him a hawk will snatch them up while he’s at school, or that the neighbor’s Pit Bull Terrier will break free from its leash and turn one into puppy chow. When we visit, he has a new contraption built for the chicks: a miniature wooden house with ramps and ladders and a nesting box. He built it in woodshop. We don’t take elective classes like woodshop. We take computer science or statistics because we’re only allowed to be doctors or engineers. And not even really doctors, because mom says women can’t stand as long especially after having children, so they can’t perform surgery well. Where are the chicks? We ask. They’re in the main house, Erik says. Under the asphalt roof so no hawks can pluck them away, behind the walls so no dogs can bite into them. We peer into the small square window, an unevenly cut hole in the wood, and we see the fluffy wing and tiny beak of a chick. But when will they go out to play? we wonder. When I let them, Erik says. But we never see him let them out again.
Freedom
When it rained, we’d pick up earthworms with our bare hands, moving them from the middle of the sidewalk to the grass. We were little heroes saving lives on our way back from school like it was nothing. Because real heroes don’t ask for praise or recognition. The day after a heavy storm, the sun already out and drying the roads and tennis courts, we saw one long earthworm flattened in the middle with its two ends still wriggling, like life was still in reach so long as it could break free of its other half. We dug out the metal ruler from our pencil case and sliced down the earthworm’s desiccated middle. Then we picked up each wriggling half and moved them to the damp soil patch besides mom’s snow pea plants. Be free, we thought. Survive. Later, after we finished our homework and had computer time, we looked it up online and prayed we made the cut behind the earthworm’s clitellum, so at least the tail could regenerate, no suffering prolonged.
Affection
Duo Duo (“多多” – nicknamed so by my aunt and uncle because she was an unexpected child, an extra element tacked onto their lives) got a bernedoodle named Bilbo. I found out through her Instagram stories. So did my parents. My parents ask me why she isn’t having kids and I tell them it’s a decision that my cousin and her husband can make on their own. I don’t tell my parents that the bernedoodle is an emotional support animal. That’s information for my cousin to share. Bilbo is a fluffy, soft, hyper thing always vying for human attention. The moment I look away, he begins to whimper, and I have to crouch down and start petting him again. He pants and lets his pink tongue dangle out of his mouth like he wants more of something. My cousin picks him up like a baby. “Do you want to hold him?” Duo Duo asks. “No,” I say. Not to offend. Maybe I’m over projecting my personal preferences onto the dog; just because I don’t like being carried or tossed around or hugged doesn’t mean Bilbo doesn’t. But really, what’s so good about being held? Your unpredictable gushes of skin and bumps of spine exposed to foreign fingertips? Good for them though, I think. I hope taking care of a dog will keep her mind off any personal troubles. But I hope she doesn’t ask me to take care of him when she flies back to Shanghai for Chinese New Year. I’d keep him fed, for sure, but I’m not sure I can shower Bilbo with lots of cuddles in bed, and Bilbo seems like the kind of dog who needs that kind of affection to survive.
Companionship
Spud nibbles on pineapple leaves. He’s a fat, white rabbit–the type raised for eating. Of course, my sister is vegetarian and would never eat her foster pet (which she never ended up returning, so I suppose Spud is hers now). When we were little, we thought: we will get a dog once we’re adults; we will get a cat; we will get a few ducks and dig a pond for them; we will start a small farm where no one eats anything with a cute face, and instead you cuddle with them as you please. But it’d have to be after we became adults because we knew dad had eaten dogs used for his medical lab experiments at Fudan University. He said dog tastes bad, but we stayed vigilant and waited patiently until we were across the country, living on our own. Now my sister has one rabbit and one chinchilla–used to be two but she found one toppled over like it had passed in its sleep a Friday evening after she’d returned from work. I don’t know if I can raise something that’ll die before me. I have trouble squashing the Machiavellian thought from my head: what was the whole point? So I focus on seven-pound Spud and the spiky pineapple leaves, drag the FaceTime window to the side of my screen and navigate to Google: it looks like pineapple leaves are nutritious, packed with fiber and calcium oxalate and Bromelain, which reduces swelling and inflammation, and maybe I’ll boil a few leaves and drink the water as tea because my body feels a bit inflamed and I don’t know why these white blood cells are trying so hard to fight outside invaders that now I’m the one left burning.
by Kate Finegan | Jan 21, 2021 | flash fiction
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Remember when the river ran just beyond our door, when rains replenished this ribbon unfurled blue and raspberries ripened close so we could smell them through our bedroom window. Remember when the robins flew in with their red breasts and you sucked the red of this body and ran the river of your tongue across this stomach wet, and wet, this body swelled and crested.
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You smile at me, and I can almost hear your skin crack.
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Remember when the rain rebirthed the earth in wriggling worms.
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Remember when you said you’d like to eat raspberries off this body’s breasts, so we plucked buckets full, and you placed the cool cups of them over this body’s nipples, dug your tongue beneath the berries, sucked them off without the lightest graze of skin, bit down just-too-hard enough to make this tongue curl back and sigh, tongues two tributaries meeting, tongues exchanging sweetness when the berries and their seeds were done and your mouth tasted of summer.
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You smile at me, and I take this word within the redness of this mouth, roll it around, suck its salt like pebbles on a hungry beach, hold it still.
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On hot days, the salt crust cracking is a requiem.
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You smile at me. The word I’m tonguing is enough.
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The Nile, the Amazon, the Yangtze, and the Yellow. The Rio Grande and River Thames. The Tigris and Euphrates, this aching fertile crescent. The Tennessee and Colorado. To think we once flooded valleys to fight the course of blood. To think we ever needed so badly to spell Mississippi we taught our children silly songs. To think still we teach our children songs.
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In a time like this, it feels wrong to see you smile.
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In this time of lips like callouses, tongues of pumice, it feels wrong to see you smile. In this time of so little sweat, no beads for this tongue to suck, no slick of skin on skin, too tired. No good morning, here’s a glass of water, sparkling, full color spectrum on the sun-drenched bedroom wall refracted. No drink it down so I can drink you up, no drink it down so you can scream my name. No finger-knots in hair. No get down to the delta of this body, take it all the way to roiling sea. In this time, all we have is smiles.
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The maps still have their arteries. I trace the blue inside your wrists with this parched tongue and you smile, say remember when it rained for forty days and forty nights and I say that’s a story, what used to be a nightmare but now sounds like a dream. We need a different dove, you say, and I can hear your voice crack, lips crack, all that runs now is blood from these cracked bodies meant for water—remember being bodies made of water—and you say, a dove with water in its mouth. I trace the blue after the blue has gone, beyond your elbow to the crater of your armpit, and remember the rainbow, hope it can mean something else, hope the rain might once again remember this parched bed of earth. You unstick your thighs from the leather sofa, sigh and smile sadly, too tired for anything more than this tongue-scrape traveling to your heart, your inland ocean, and here we are, an ark of two, this promise that if we break, we’ll break together. And the raspberry vines wait outside, and the riverbed lies empty just beyond the door.
This piece was originally published in Gigantic Sequins.
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