by Chris Negron | Sep 9, 2024 | contest winner, flash fiction
We went to the museum, but we didn’t see anything good.
We sat on a long bench under the great T-Rex, frozen in midroar. Outside, your son wound his way through a fake rainforest, raised pathways running under and over each other. He had darted for the doors as soon as the tickets were paid for. Escaping.
“Go with him,” you told your husband.
The sun spiked its rays between the branches, every few minutes shining straight into our eyes. Every few minutes making us squint. Every few minutes causing us to raise our hands to block out the unwanted light as we lost sight of our families. My wife. Your husband. Your son.
“I can’t see him anymore,” you said.
We were surrounded by the past, but focused only on the future.
The adults laughed as your boy led them around in mad circles. They doubled over, out of breath. Even they, the healthy ones, couldn’t keep up with him. Or maybe they weren’t trying hard enough. Maybe they were letting him run, because, lately, it was all he seemed to want to do.
“They’ll be all right,” you said.
And I couldn’t tell if it was a question or not.
We came here to talk, but that turned out to be harder than expected.
The silence was much easier. It came naturally, carried aloft by the pain that enveloped us both, transmitted by senses dulled by pills and injections. I shrugged my shoulders and gripped my cane harder whenever I felt myself slipping. You shifted and twisted your hips every time your colostomy bag pinched your skin wrong.
Eventually, words came. Some anyway. College, stepmother, IRAs. Next husband, graduation, wedding. First girlfriend, prom. Remember to laugh, take care of my plants, don’t give away my comics.
Your son returned triumphant, pressing his breathless grin into the glass. Our spouses walking twenty feet behind him, talking with heads down, hands tucked deep into pockets, wrists clutched behind backs. They caught us watching and forced smiles onto their faces, sent too-enthusiastic waves our way.
We were the ones dying, but they were the ones it was killing.
“I’m going to miss it,” you said.
Slipping, slipping, slipping. I shrugged my shoulders. Gripped my cane harder. Straightened my posture.
The movie was about to start. Something about whales. In the museum we went to, different movies played every hour, but this particular one, only once per day. Your son loved whales, so we waved them all toward the theater.
“Try not to miss any of it,” you said.
“It only happens once,” you said.
They begged for us to join them, but we were too tired. Still, your son lingered. He leaned against your legs and glanced above you, straight at the giant teeth of the T-Rex. His curious eyes followed the old dinosaur’s bones from head to tail and back again.
He tore his gaze away from the old fossil, and his hands shot straight into the air. He winked his fingers open and shut. Obediently, your husband took one, my wife the other. They pulled him free from you.
And you did not reach out. And you did not try to force him to stay.
One last time, they—your husband, my wife—asked us to join them. They pointed up at the theater, not more than thirty feet away.
There’s even an elevator, they said.
We answered no. One last time.
Shoulders slumped, the two of them trudged up the ramp toward the double-doored entrance. Your son skipped faster and bobbed higher between them with each step closer. Closer to the whales and the ocean, to the deep blue, to the waiting nothingness.
Closer, closer, closer. Closer and farther at the same time.
Because we followed them, but only with our eyes.
by Danielle Mund | Sep 5, 2024 | contest winner, flash fiction
In the first month of the year after the holiday season she felt out of sorts (the season she got the diagnosis, the season the doctor gave her a referral to the Giant Hospital), Barbara bought things. She awoke every day with the phrase carpe diem on a looping conveyor belt in her mind, showered in frigid water as soon as it shot from the showerhead (to wait for it to turn hot was the difference between life and death), and dressed quickly and simply, for it was imperative she be at the Big Lots! when the doors opened at nine. Not getting coffee at Starbucks across the street, not parking in the parking lot, but actually standing at the door. If she wasn’t, she’d already lost out on the possibility of claiming the entirety of the day’s clearance rack, lost the day’s meaning. Once she was inside and had chosen the right shopping cart, she wheeled it directly to the farthest point in the store and began scavenging down the aisles. She loaded up on whatever was on sale: toothbrushes and bath bombs, Connect4 and Barbie dolls, bras too big and too small, leftover tinsel, a dog bed, a Discman with AM/FM radio, a swiveling office chair. She gathered them as a squirrel gathers acorns, each day collecting and organizing and storing, and just as a squirrel buries its treasure in the space between the heavens and the inferno, so Barbara rocked herself into a trancelike state between the aisles of her own meticulous making at home: Apparel, Holiday Decor, Office Supplies. Day after day she returned to the ever-changing display at the front of the store where a carousel of discounted items from electronics to baby bibs required a Tetris-like rearrangement of items in her cart. On the morning she cracked the puzzle without once having to take an item out before putting it back in again, she let out an audible “Amen,” and that afternoon arranged things at home without rocking. By then she was placing things not in the house but behind the garage, where there was a broken refrigerator she’d found by the side of the road. The fridge had compartments, and that was its point. Because she had a nagging feeling that lining things up along the backside of the garage could be considered the beginning stage of something unspeakable (she did not know what it was exactly, but it had to do with avalanches of tools, hidden insect nests, getting lost without anyone ever realizing), she told herself she was placing things outside only until her husband cleaned up his stuff, only until the exterminator came, just until she could find the stove, only putting things in a new place because it was more spacious, easier to see, only because things had a way of getting away from her in the house just when she needed them. The fridge reminded her that compartmentalizing was key, that preservation was crucial. Outside she didn’t have to worry about an avalanche when she rocked, outside she could stack things farther apart so they could breathe. Space was essential for creating new walls. Sometimes Big Lots! ran out of clearance items, and she’d have to go to Walmart or Target or search for some immaculate yard sale in another ramshackle town along the Hudson, pick up clues leading to the dump at the far end of town, find decaying toilet bowls or fish tanks. When that happened, she moved cautiously, limited only by her truck’s size, feeling, finally, the importance and care each item required of her, the mendable lawn mower, the patchable coveralls, the fractured mirror, the ripped duvet, the oozing boom boxes, the jigsaw that occupied her whole mind, body, and soul.
So that she never needed help, she kept a jack (or three, and a detachable folding hauling bed, ready whenever she needed it) in the back of the truck. She could lift a whole rusted-out car with two hands (slip the jack under its belly, forget the wheels, wheels fall off, wheels were to be organized separately anyway), and she hauled in dishwashers, boilers, and dryers. Sometimes, she would stand on top of the largest mound and stare out at the overwhelming security around her (she always tried to make eye contact with the landfill manager, a sign of impregnable mental control, nothing ever lost in her world), and then she would shuffle back between the heaps, letting the natural bulwarks guide her to the sagging truck. In the first month of the year after the holiday season she felt out of sorts, the season she got the diagnosis, the season the doctor gave her a referral to the Giant Hospital, a horrible season to exist, Barbara welcomed 4,798 treasures big and small onto her property. Sometimes, in the late afternoons, the terror would course through her bloodstream, form a new growth in her brain, shoot her in the eye with vivid visions of rectangular wooden boxes and yellow carnations and insect-filled dirt and the inevitability of what she’d already created for herself in this world, but all that disappeared when she was amongst her things.
by Zach Moser | Sep 3, 2024 | contest winner, flash fiction
In 2023, the island known in County Kerry as the Sleeping Giant, named for its resemblance to a man lying on his back, exhaled. Those first few people to see it were quick to dismiss the notion they must have seen mist rising or a flock of gulls. For, as they explained, they had seen the chest of the Giant sink, then rise. In only a few hours, the people of the Dingle Peninsula on the west coast of Ireland, just east of the island, had nearly all seen for themselves that the Sleeping Giant had indeed exhaled. And continued to do so throughout the day and into the evening.
When a length of brownstone that could only be an arm slowly inched into view on the westerly side of the island, even the oldest Dingle men in their drinks, whose brows were furrowed in a never-ending scowl of suspicion, suddenly raised the tips of their caps, eyes widening in deep alarm. The Sleeping Giant was breathing, and it was no longer sleeping.
Schoolchildren were rushed home, restaurants closed their doors and turned off their gas, the pubs stayed open, and the fire towers set up 24-hour watches with binoculars and floodlights aimed at the Sleeping Giant who inch by inch over the course of a week lifted a great earthen hand up above the curve of its belly. In the towns on the small peninsula, villagers rushed from house to house to trade news and misgivings. As they ran across thin cobblestone streets, their heads were tugged toward the island as if beckoned by the slowly rising rock.
When another brown tract of land rose from the sea on the easterly side of the island, and five hard fingers breached the turquoise surface of the sea, the wind picked up. The weather could change from one street to the next on a normal day in Dingle, but three weeks after the Sleeping Giant first exhaled, a cold wind began to pound steadily from the direction of the island.
Every day, the Giant rose farther out of the Atlantic, and every day, the gale winds blew fiercer. Shutters clapped, and handkerchiefs were ripped out of people’s pockets. Sheep, oblivious to the growing shadow in their farmers’ lives, were blown like white tumbleweeds across the pastures. One shrewd farmer tied bricks of peat to his herds’ hind legs. This worked for only a few hours before the animals decided their weights were tastier than the grass and ate away each other’s anchors. The farmer came out later that night to see his sheep pinned against his far gate, baa-ing indignantly.
After four weeks, the Sleeping Giant was sitting up, its head bowed to its chest as if still drowsy. Some on the peninsula fleetingly thought to call the taoiseach in Dublin but decided that as the problem was off their shores, it was theirs alone to endure.
The Iveragh Peninsula to the south thought the same. When a constable from a seaside town peered north one night and saw the Sleeping Giant bent over, twice as high as normal, he said to his wife, “They’ll be having trouble up around Dingle, I imagine.” The Irish government would not have been much help anyway. Irish Rugby was preparing for the quarterfinals of the World Cup, their eighth visit, and most folks had their focus invested on the pitch.
The villagers’ disquiet turned to dread when on the fifth week, the Sleeping Giant’s head turned toward them. Neighbors stopped visiting each other’s homes, the only gesture of community was blinking flashlights from slatted windows. Even the pubs were silent, drinks ordered with finger raises rather than words. There were no songs. The wind was too loud. And every night, the young children cowered together under the sound of gnashing and grinding as the Giant rose ever upward.
When the Sleeping Giant rose to its feet, bent in a squat, rain, hail, and wind smashed into the peninsula with hurricane force. Families moved beds into basements, preparing for when the Sleeping Giant finally stood. Generations of Dingle families looked out over the ocean to see their friendly island. Now, to find out it had been a monster in the mist, many were surprised to find strands of betrayal mingling with the nest of fear and worry cocooned in their chests.
Six weeks after the Sleeping Giant first exhaled, at midnight, the wind died. Families in their basements awoke, shocked by the sudden silence. Men and women in the pubs put their drinks down and looked over bent shoulders as moonlight peeked through the boarded-up windows and painted their faces. And then a mighty roar.
Cracking stones erupted, winds screamed over the island like banshees, and rain drummed angry as a military tattoo. Every light on the peninsula was extinguished and fathers and mothers held their children, and those in the pubs held their drinks and occasionally each other.
The next morning, to everyone’s shock, the sun rose. One brave child sprung from his bed and raced outside. His mother screamed after him but when she went out, she fell silent. Just as everyone did that morning. Fences were twisted into balls, windows were shattered, and fish lay all over the streets, some still flopping. But the damage was not total; only one man died. The farmer who had tied peat to his flock had tried the same trick with cement blocks only to receive a kick from a fed-up ewe right to his temple.
Out on the ocean, the Sleeping Giant was gone. The people smiled at each other, but only because they were supposed to, they had survived the danger after all. But in their hearts, something ached. There was a hole in their ocean where an island once stood. They cupped their eyes, searching for the monster who had made its home along the same blue-and-green coast that they themselves had loved so well.
by Sara McKinney | Aug 29, 2024 | Uncategorized
When the Children came back, they came back different. Dante had an arm that wasn’t his attached at the shoulder. You could tell because of how long it was, much longer than the other, and the fact that it was on backward. Rachel, who always talked so much before, couldn’t talk at all except to let out a little screaming laugh when you bumped into her, and Maggie, well, some sort of animal must have got at her because her face had chunks missing.
We didn’t quite know what to do with them, although of course the parents were happy. New toys were purchased, old bedroom furniture repainted in bright, smiling colors. They brought the Children’s clothes out of storage and washed them, so the Children didn’t have to keep wearing the suits and dresses (now quite musty and moldy in places) that they were buried in.
In school, the Children sat silently, stiffly, facing forward at their desks, unblinking. This was true even of Jimmy, who used to be such a clown, throwing pencils at the ceiling and performing acrobatic dismounts from the top of his desk, but now he never laughed or spoke except to say please and thank you in a voice that creaked like a door hinge left unoiled for a century. Their homeroom teacher confided in me one afternoon when we ran into each other in the hallway that she was leaving them alone more and more often, sneaking into the lounge or the bathroom to sip from a small glass bottle while the Children stared obediently at the chalkboard. When she came back, they were always exactly where she left them.
“It’s the stillness,” she said, her hand on my arm as if it were a banister on a staircase she couldn’t quite trust. “The perfect stillness, I can’t stand it. There’s something still dead about them. They’re alive, but not really. They don’t breathe, I’ve noticed.”
I frowned at this; the teacher was a downer and always had been. Everybody knew it. I rather liked the Children in their new state, even the ones who hadn’t come out totally intact but instead leaked juices onto the carpet or belched out centipedes and beetles. There was something lovely about their wanness, coldness, stiffness, how you could look out on the schoolyard and see them playing the way they played now, no running or jumping or screaming, only sitting in neat pewed rows while one of them lay on the ground, eyes closed as if sleeping and at peace. Their positioning was always expressive, finely articulated in the tilt of heads and necks, the way a doll’s might be. Death had fashioned them all into actors.
It was nice to think sometimes that in a kinder world my own son might have been among them, his own wanness, coldness, stiffness endearing him to the other Children. I imagined them passing the small swaddle of his body back and forth, incorporating it into their scenes of mourning, a younger sibling, a prop and a wonder. I imagined wiping the soil from his skin and teaching him to play like them, quietly laying him to rest, not in another coffin, but in the crib that stood, unused, in my attic. Now play dead, I would say, and he would die, temporarily and incompletely, his bright green eyes watching me from under the lids. But my son was not like the other Children; my son had been born dead. There was no life to return to his body, and so he stayed below.
“Well, it’s not their fault,” I sniffed. “We asked them to come back. And they’re a bit too young for labels.” This was true, although none of them would ever grow any older. Before she could respond, I headed back to the lounge, because I didn’t want to hear it. What right did she have to complain about them, anyway? Certainly, our jobs had become easier. The Children were, if nothing else, well-behaved, as sweet as any mother’s dream.
by Betty Martin | Aug 26, 2024 | flash fiction
The giant orb in the night sky makes our friend’s house look like a doll’s house. One of us mentions this and another of us scoffs, “As if.” We clutch sleeping bags in our arms, plain ones without characters. We borrow them from older siblings, or our parents buy them when they give in to our pleas. Some of us miss our Powerpuff Girls-, Sailor Moon-, or Polly Pocket-themed sleeping bags. None of us admit it. We troop inside and mutter hellos to our friend’s parents, who answer us with great big hellos and usher us upstairs. Our friend has turned thirteen, and we are here to celebrate at her birthday party sleepover.
Everything’s set up in our friend’s bedroom. Candy, chips, more candy, more chips, and liter bottles of caffeinated soda; all are our appetite’s desires. We dump our sleeping bags in corners. A breeze from the window tousles scraps of paper in a glass ashtray set on the floor. The scraps of paper have our noms de sorcières written on them, passed to our friends during the day at school. An orange BIC lighter our friend swiped from her parents rests nearby. We form a circle and sit cross-legged, joining hands. We evoke Hecate, Circe and Vanilla Mieux, Medea, Sabrina, and Hermione Granger. We call to Angela Leon. We call to Morgan le Fay. We ask for their blessing and then we chant our chosen names. Our friend swipes a thumb over the metal wheel on the orange BIC lighter, igniting a holy flame, setting the scraps of paper on fire. We’ve all seen The Craft.
“You better not be smoking!” shouts a parental voice from below. Our laughter floats out the window and down to the patio where our friend’s parents sit smoking Newports. We watch the fire consume our names until there’s nothing more to burn.
Anticlimax. Ennui. Each of us feels the letdown. No transformation presents itself. Our host saves us. “Let’s do our faces!” We take out our makeup, leftover lipsticks moms have given us, Hello Kitty eyeshadow kits, and real eyeshadow kits, stolen from our older sisters. Lipstick goes on lips, eyeshadow goes on eyelids, and blusher goes on cheeks. We go creative after that, beauty marks dot green cheeks, red lipstick smears on eyelids, and eyeliner inks eyebrows as thick as caterpillars, as black as soot sprites.
We test our magical powers. One of us volunteers and lies down in the middle of the room. We each place a finger underneath and chant, “Light as a feather, stiff as a board.” Our friend swears she lifts off the floor. Our power proves itself. “Now, do me!” insists another.
We grab the Ouija spirit board, daring each other to ask. “Does he like me?” Some of us replace the spoken pronoun “he” with a silent “she.” “Yes,” “No,” “Good Bye,” we hold our tender hearts in our hands until we get the answer.
“Music Time!” shrieks the birthday girl, pressing the power button on a birthday-present boom box. Two round speakers protrude from a yellow CD player. Yellow CD player eyes fill the room with sound, and we dance, careless of its gaze. Arms stretch, hands reach, torsos twist, hips gyrate. We follow the beat, the rhythm guides us. One of us grabs an empty Pringles can, an instant microphone, and lip-syncs to a sultry song. “Crank it up!” so loud we barely hear our friend’s parents say, “This is positively The Last Sleepover.” It makes us laugh all the harder.
Mardi Gras necklaces jangle against our chests as we jump and writhe. One of us leaps onto the bed and quirks a Britney hip thrust. Our friend’s little toy poodle yaps and runs in counterclockwise circles. Black barrettes on curly white poodle fur hop and skip and come loose. Our laughter explodes. One of us spills soda on the carpet. The little toy poodle laps it up and all of us shriek.
“I’m going up there.”
“Let them have the night.”
Our night. Seven best friends who are, finally, all of us, thirteen.
One last game before it’s lights out, a new game we’ve all just heard about, not yet named, described in whispered conversations in school hallways and the girl’s changing room. “Shh!” says our host, and we obey, exchanging half smiles, suppressing half giggles. Our host empties the snack bowl, and we tumble in our treasures, booty from medicine chests, bedside tables, and pocketbooks. Our friend rotates a spoon around the bowl; ovals, oblongs, and circles, white, pink, and peach, rattle together. A blindfold goes around our friend’s eyes—the birthday girl goes first and closes a hand over a pill. The blindfold passes from hand to hand, and we all do the same. With a show of hands, pop go the treasures into waiting mouths. A soda swig and a swallow, and now we wait.
Not for long. We dance the dance of goddesses, of sorceresses, of mages. Pores sweat, hearts pound, heads buzz, eyes divine. We’re walking on sunshine. We’ve got the power. We have the touch, the music is in us. We commune with the cosmos and feel every particle. One of us floats to the ground. One of us falls off the bed. We lie on the floor and watch the ceiling sparkle with colors, race with contrails. One of us will haunt these kinds of parties, Skittles parties, a sweet candy name, a fun name. One of us wants to have more fun, to fly above the fog of despair thickening each day. One of us will plummet into addiction. But on this birthday night, all of us fly together over a hunter’s moon, all of us dreaming, none of us knowing.
by Mimi Manyin | Aug 22, 2024 | contest winner, flash fiction
My son…he’s a good boy. I hug him as often as I can. Casey is almost five now, but he’s small for his age, so he feels more like a three-year-old. I want to hug him like this forever. I want him to hug me back like this forever – with both arms and legs and all of his little body. He won’t hug me like this when he’s older. I know it. He will want to hug someone else – someone prettier, someone younger, someone his age. And then I won’t have anyone to hug.
I moved to the suburbs three towns over from our old house. I want to be far away from Joe, so I won’t run into his friends and relatives. I don’t want anyone to ask about our situation. All I can rely on now is the Voila! app on my phone. Everyone loves this app. I use it to make duplicates of my favorite donut. I snap a picture with the app, press send, and voilà, a copy pops out of the Duplicator I have at home. Making duplicates feels good. I can make as many copies as I like until my stomach feels satisfied. One more chocolate-glazed donut and one more glass of wine before I go to bed. Joe is not here to remind me I’m not supposed to have any more or tell me I need to lose weight. One is fine. The duplicates don’t contain the sugar or the alcohol, so it’s no big deal. Slightly less palatable, but the satisfaction is real. They fill me up every time.
The bakery down the street doesn’t mind people snapping pictures of their pastries inside the store as long as you buy a dozen to go. They know the experience cannot be duplicated entirely. These are just copies. They look the same but don’t taste the same. Not quite.
Casey and I used to choose together which donuts we wanted to duplicate. I always had a clean plate right by my Duplicator. I would snap a picture of the donuts and out popped the extra ones onto the plate. We had such a great time. Once in a while, I also made copies of Casey’s stuffed animals so he could have more friends. Casey craved hugs like me. He told me his arms would ache if he didn’t have anything to hug. Seeing him surrounded by friends made me feel loved, too. It made me feel like a good mother, especially when I was at work and I couldn’t wrap my arms around my boy to comfort him.
I did it at my last supervised visit. Casey had fallen asleep on the couch while watching TV. Joe told me they needed to head out soon. Casey had a play date at four so it was better for me to leave now before he woke up. Joe said all this with his back toward me as he climbed the stairs to get Casey’s stuffed elephant for the car ride. He didn’t even look me in the eye. Seven years of marriage! As soon as he was out of sight, I snapped a picture of Casey. God knows when Joe would suddenly stop letting me come over for visits, supervised or not.
The duplication took much longer than I expected, but it worked. After putting it together limb by limb, my copy looks just like our Casey. He doesn’t say or do much, but he is with me and he is happy. When we go for walks, I dress him up warmly and let him ride in the stroller. We go shopping and we go to the park. When we get home, I let him fall asleep on my tummy, and I hug him nice and tight through the night. He doesn’t mind if my tears spill onto his pajamas. He knows how much I love him.
I wish I could make a copy of Joe, too, but he never falls asleep on the couch. He keeps his eagle eye on me at all times. He locks his fridge and his wine cabinet. He always positions himself between Casey and me as if I’m going to do something bad. I’m not a monster. He doesn’t have to treat me like this. Mothers would never harm their children. Joe should know that. He said I was scaring Casey. I wasn’t. I just wanted to hug him. Who is going to love me now? Joe told me I needed to pull myself together. He said he still cared about me, but he couldn’t be with me anymore. I told him that was bullshit. If he loved me, he would have helped me instead of kicked me out. I yelled at him to prove his love and he turned his face away to wipe his crocodile tears. He said he wished he could have the “old me” back.
I know he has a copy of me somewhere in his house because he used to love me. I don’t want him to love a copy of me. I want him to love me and keep me.
Tomorrow, I’m going to sneak inside his house and get rid of that copy. Then I’ll stay. I’ll make myself huggable without all the unhealthy ingredients, so both Casey and Joe will love me again.
Just hug me one more time. Just one more.
by Diane Gottlieb | Aug 20, 2024 | interview
I’ve been a fan of Constance Malloy’s for quite some time now. I always look forward to her posts on The Burning Hearth, and her memoir Tornado Dreams speaks to trauma and the path to healing with great courage and hope. Her latest book Born of Water: A Hybrid Novelette (ELJ Editions) is a beautiful example of Malloy’s vision and versatility. It was my great pleasure to speak to her about visions, writing hybrid, and the freedoms that both provide.
Diane Gottlieb: Congratulations, Constance, on your gorgeous Born of Water: A Hybrid Novelette! I love hybrids—and this one is a masterclass in hybrid writing. I read your memoir Tornado Dreams, and while some of the events in Born of Water are lifted from the real-life experience, they are woven together with speculative, futuristic, and fictional threads.
You even get a little meta at the end of Part One:
“Believing a character’s relationship with the author is an intimate dance predicated on the need for independence, which is necessitated by the need for dependence and borrowed experience, I promise Mari to listen to her story without interfering, and to open myself freely, so that she may take from me whatever is required for its telling.
It feels like you added nonfiction elements in the service of telling Mari’s story—which is fascinating. Can you tell us how you came to that decision, about your process?
Constance Malloy: Including nonfictional elements from my life into Mari’s story was not so much a decision as much as it was an organic pulling from my experience to tell her story. Something, I believe, all writers do. As I say in the quote above, it comes from her “…need for dependence and borrowed experience….” Because of my personal history, I’m compelled to tell stories about self-abandonment, what happens when that self-abandonment continues over years, and what is required to reclaim the self. So, Mari borrows from my experience. As a character (more specifically as a character of my creation), she depends upon me to free up that experience for her and grant her the autonomy to use that experience as she sees fit.
Including the meta section in Part I was a decision I made. So often authors are asked where their characters come from. Reflecting on being asked that about Mari, I felt it was important to tell the story of her origin. I want to believe that adds depth to her story, while also giving readers something to chew on about the author/character relationship.
DG: What freedom does writing hybrid give you that writing either straight-up nonfiction or fiction can’t provide?
CM: So, way back in the mid-1980s, sitting in Jane Smiley’s creative writing classes at Iowa State, I was already beginning to do hybrid writing. I loved mashing up elements of fiction and nonfiction. I loved throwing in a poetic line here and there. I loved adding the surreal, the ethereal, and the speculative to the real. Jane suggested that I decide what kind of writer I wanted to be. But honestly, I didn’t know how to do that because my brain simply works in all of these modes. And most importantly, stories come to me in all these modes. I’m a purest when it comes to rendering stories the way they present themselves. It’s very seldom that a story comes to me as one genre. Although, I do have a fantasy trilogy in the hopper (has been for 30 years) that is 100% speculative fiction. In short, writing this way gives me the freedom to be who I am as a writer.
DG: Many of the chapters have dreamlike elements. You and I have spoken before about dreams being real. Can you share your thoughts about that? Are visions real? What is real?
CM: To me, visions are absolutely real. In fact, they are an integral part of my life. Dreams and visions have helped me; they’ve prepared me, as my dreams did in my memoir Torndado Dreams, to climb the cliff in Born of Water; and they keep me in touch with the realms that exist beyond this human, Earth-bound, experience.
DG: Nature and the natural world are prominent in this book. Mari has earned great acclaim for her work of writing obituaries for bodies of water, which according to the character Rhys Jensen, the former Lake Michigan representative for The Great Lakes Consortium, have “changed the lens upon which we absorb the myriad of uncomfortable truths we now face because of our shared failure to protect the only home we have.” What a powerful statement!
How important is it to you to speak to the real problems of our world, such as climate change, in a fictional, futuristic way?
Constance: Having been influenced by Star Trek since the age of 5, I believe it is now in my blood to talk about uncomfortable realities of the present from a place of distance. But life is like that, right? I didn’t write my memoir while in the middle of my therapy. I didn’t write climbing the cliff while I was on it. We need distance and perspective and time to understand and recognize outcomes and consequences. But I believe there are some of us who can look at systems, recognize how they are functioning, extrapolate future behaviors of people based upon their current actions, and roll all that out to a logical conclusion. A bit off topic, but my mother has often told me of her expectations she had for her future with my father, which were miles away from her reality with him. My constant refrain has been, “What about your past experience with him made you think that was possible?”
Placing things like climate change in the future allows for A plus B equaled C. The writer can show how certain actions or inactions lead to particular outcomes. You can remove the speculation through the speculative.
DG: You’ve written memoir and now hybrid. What’s next for you?
CM: I want to continue the story of Mari and Rhys from Born of Water. I have a few essays I want to pen. I’m beginning my co-author journey with Kris Roberts. (For those who’ve been following the story, she is the woman who was abducted leaving my house when we were children.) And then, there’s that trilogy that’s been in the hopper for 30 years.
by Fractured Lit | Aug 20, 2024 | news
This has definitely been one of our hardest contests to decide on a longlist. We had the privilege of reading many fantastic chapbooks over the last few months, and we’re sad we can only pick one winner. Here are the titles of the thirty-five that make up our longlist.
- Fish Eyes
- My Years of Blue Violence
- The Start-Over Game
- Nectar & other stories
- Picking Up Stones
- Playing Pretend
- Various Dispositions
- Everything Bites
- Consider the Grease Traps
- Little Knives
- Hurt Me
- False Life
- Nicotine Walls
- Lisa Longs To Hold Harry
- Every Twelfth Tree
- Fighting my enemies in the Applebee’s parking lot
- Roll and Curl
- Dementia and the Wild Man
- Family Haunts
- Like Oil and Water
- Mulch
- The Afternoon of Family
- All the Small Things
- Butterscotch Yellow, short fictions
- Shoreline
- Meanwhile, In the Hungry Dark
- Have Headphones — Will Travel
- You Go Home
- Dreamboat
- Kaleidoscope
- Secrets and Truths
- Jazz Picnic: Very Short Stories
- The Rest of My Life Might Be Razor Wire
- I Spent the Summer in Chengdu
- On the Batang Ai and Other Flash and Microfiction
by Elia Karra | Aug 19, 2024 | contest winner, flash fiction
When the first of the last coughs come, I take my father to the sea. I know he likes it there. Every time memory resurfaces and reveals his previous life—before my mother, before me, long before the sting of IV lines and the smell of disinfectant—he talks about all the places he’s been. The Panama Canal, the Suez Canal, the Isthmus of Corinth. Tiny, cramped spaces that are neither here nor there. All these in-betweens.
Make sure to put a coin in my mouth.
Does Charon take euros these days?
He can still walk and we walk together over sand and pebbles and green glass shards. A year ago, we were in The Hague, salt-whipped and chilled to the bone by the North Sea. Our Aegean is calmer, even this time of the year, but he’s bundled up in the same coat because he can’t handle the cold anymore. The shore is quiet, empty. The seagulls have come back to take their rightful place.
We used to come here when I was a kid. Every summer spent swimming and building sandcastles. My father, in the same bathing suit since his Navy days, coffee and cigarette in hand.
Did I tell you about the time we jumped in the Atlantic?
Yeah. Tell me again.
He tells me a gasping, wheezing story. He remembers some things wrong or maybe this is the first time he remembers them right. It was so cold, he tells me, they had to huddle up for hours afterward. In past retellings, he was back on duty in the engine room, sweating as the others shivered.
He shivers now, either with cold or with the echo of that day. I haven’t hugged him since I was twelve and so I don’t. He puts his red, steroid-swollen hands in his pockets instead and gazes at the waves, the lace of foam draped over the rocks. The skin on his face is taut, stretched thin over his skull. Smooth as the stones beneath our feet. I can’t remember him any other way. When I think about childhood recitals, birthdays, those days at the beach, he looks like this: old but not old enough, too-thin torso, too-big limbs. His past selves overwritten.
I brought him here for a reason. I brought him here because his lungs are failing him and the air hurts, so maybe he doesn’t need his lungs and he doesn’t need the air. I take off my shoes, my socks, my jacket, lay them on the sand. My father watches, shakes his head. He always needs some coaxing.
Come. It’s only water.
She cradled him once, this wine-dark sea, and she’s called for him ever since. The crash of the waves, the crunch of sand. Her ghost in the conch shell he brought with him from the Caribbean coasts. He can answer her now. There’s nowhere else he has to be.
We stand ankle-deep in the water and it stings like a hundred little jellyfish. It soaks the cuffs of my jeans. The cotton sticks to my legs like a second skin. Beside me, my father begins the long, laborious trek out to the deep and I follow him, hands flying out to steady him when he falters.
And then the sea holds us, and we’re weightless despite our soaked clothes, treading water as if we were always meant to. A homecoming.
But we’re not built for this, not really, and transformations are slow processes. Flesh torn and reshaped, forged into something new. The sun path is short these days and by the time the first gill appears, reddened and tender on the expanse of my father’s ribs, the seawater shimmers with the last of the light. He coughs, the bone-rattling cough of a dying man. He spits salt and saliva, beats the discomfort out of his chest with a fist.
Does it hurt?
No. I just have to find my sea legs.
I wait until he does. I wait until three gills form on each side of his torso, until his lungs finally rest. Until he draws water into his mouth and doesn’t choke, until the last of the coughs is silenced.
Grief is to the body as silt is to water.
My stomach is full of brine when I drag myself to shore, my clothes drenched and heavy. It’s dark now and I have to feel my way to my jacket, fingertips over pebbles and grit and sea glass. I gather my things and his. He’s left behind a coat, a pair of shoes. A few people.
The waves crash in, reaching inland, lapping at my feet. I like to think I can still see him, in the distance, though it’s dark and he’s too far into the sea. In his coat pocket, I find a coin, small and shiny, round like the moon that pulls the tides. Payment for a safe passage.
by Lori Isbell | Aug 15, 2024 | contest winner, flash fiction
We were sitting in the stadium waiting for the Face. It came at 6:45, right-center field, or that’s what I’d heard because I hadn’t seen it yet.
I was there with my son and one of his friends from the city league—Kierran or Kellan, scrawny kid from the west side. Whose parents were both lawyers and bought him a three-hundred-dollar glove, which he mostly sat on so he wouldn’t get dirty. Which my wife says is none of my business, but there you go.
She was at home, my wife. Said the Face was a marketing gimmick. Some digital whatever—a hologram, I think. Some way to get people to the ballpark early so they could buy more beer and nachos, nine-dollar dogs. Not even a Face, said my wife, probably a logo or something, and she wasn’t driving all the way downtown in traffic when she had things to do—laundry!—by which she meant Netflix.
So, I’d brought the boys. The hot dogs weren’t bad. And if seeing a game could help my son learn to lean into the plate and stop whaling at the ball like trying to bring down a plane, well, I figured, it would be worth the trip.
Because you had to make a trip if you wanted to see the Face. It didn’t show up in the pictures or the videos people took, so you couldn’t see it online—couldn’t get it on your phone. Which pissed people off, even if it was Jesus.
That’s what people were saying: the Face was the Face of Jesus. Though some said it was the Dominican reliever the team had signed, or the winner of some contest, a reality show. My buddy at work said it was the guy with the weird hair from the China thing.
I turned to my son and his friend. “Guys, you ready?”
“I’m on a level,” said my son, thumbing at a tiny screen.
“For the Face,” I said.
“Dad, not now.”
“There he is!” said Kerwin, or Klennan, my son’s friend.
But he meant the mascot—the guy in the furry suit—and the boys went back to their phones, their games. I checked my own phone: 6:43.
A nun shoved past me. The religious types were here, with the singing and praying and end of something. Or beginning. Not that I’ve got a problem with the religious types, of course. But if you want to hail a Mary, or amaze a little grace?—don’t go putting your elbow in a man’s Coors Lite.
More people mashed in, along the steps and in the aisles. Pushing into rows, trying to get a view. Most of us were on our feet and straining to right-center, when it seemed like in the distance…maybe, I thought I saw…but then the crowd heaved over and we all went down.
So I can’t really say if I saw the Face or I didn’t. When the bodies went horizontal—people shouting and crashing hard, on the seats, on the floor—I pulled my son and his friend close, covered their bodies with mine.
My wife wanted to know why we were home so early. I had to explain about the night and how our son cracked his screen and why we smelled like beer and mustard from the deck of Section J.
She put our son to bed.
I checked my phone for the Face.
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